When do I get to be selfish?

Okay, maybe not literally, but why is it that people can expect things of you that you can't expect of them? I feel like I'm such a thoughtful person (I know, do I need help patting myself on the back?), but then when I hope that people would return that same thoughtfulness, it isn't.

I have a calendar, not a fancy one, not an expensive one, but the free one from Turkey Hill Ice cream. (I emailed a question to them three years ago, and now I get their calendar). And every year when I get it, I sit down and write down everyone's anniversary and birthday (that I know). I do this so I won't forget. I think its important not to forget.

I make it a point to call people on their respective dates, (or at least send a card). For my niece and nephews' birthdays, they always get a gift (and a phone call for the out of state ones). I think its important. For my brothers, they ALWAYS get a phone call, and for my sister-in-laws an acknowledgement too of some kind.

Is it too much to ask to get the same courtesy? My brother, in Indiana, forgot my birthday, yet again. The funny part (if you can find one) is that I talked to him yesterday (the day before my birthday). Nary a mention of it. We spoke long enough for him to find out that I was shipping out a trumpet for his son to use, for school. Then he had an important call that he had to take.

There probably won't be any mention of it, ever. When my daughter's birthday came in May, they didn't acknowledge it, and only, when it was pointed out to him, did he say, "yeah, we lost our book of dates." Like somehow that makes it all better or okay.

I feel like I could 'overlook' or 'forget' one of their birthdays and should be guilt-free, but do 'two wrongs make a right?' What does that prove? Their still egocentric, but I'm petty? But I ask you, when do I get to be selfish?

I'm not the type of person to be confrontational, (hence this blog that probably no one reads), but I want to call him up and say, "Why is it okay for you to forget me, but if I forgot you or your kids, that would be the equivalence to Armageddon? Why don't I (or my 2 year old daughter) matter enough for you to get a new date book?"

WW LifeTime

What does that mean? It means that I made goal, maintained fr 6 weeks, and are still within 2 lbs. I can't believe that I am here at lifetime. I cant' believe that I'm finally at a healthy weight. The last time I was here, I was in the 6th grade. Not to say that I wasn't ever healthy, but not like this.

I am not sure that I can maintain this forever, but I will certainly try.

This weekend

We're going to Gettysburg. I'm not sure what we're in for. Rob was concerned that Amelia wouldn't get anything out of it, and considered waiting, but here's the thing. When she's old enough to 'get' something out of it, I don't think she'll care.

So, we're going to go overnight. Easy packing, I don't actually have to bring the kitchen sink, plus because we're driving, I'll have room to bring all the stuff we'll need, which is less now that she's older.

I remember the first time we went away, Amelia was 6 months. I believe I did bring the kitchen sink that time. I needed sooooo much stuff. It was crazy. (and again we were there for a long weekend).

Life gets easier -- I think!

Maintance

Who would have thought that I would actually make it to goal? With a 57 lb. loss, I surely didn't. The last time I did WW, I stopped when my dad passed away. WW wasn't the priority then.

I guess I always figured something else would get in my way this time too.

Well, here I am finshed week 3 of Maintance, and the end seems so far away. I know its not, and its only three more weeks, but that's almost a month. (amazing the head games that we use -- in particular how words affect us).

I'm not sure of the point of this post, other than to say --
I think I can,
I think I can,
I think I can!!!
(thanks Little Engine that Could)

Sleep -- The Endangered Activity

Why is that when I need to get up, that is when Amelia decides to sleep in? Saturday, I needed to get up and take her to my WW meeting. She decides to sleep in until almost 8:00. Which is exactly when my meeting starts.

I went late, and it isn't the end of the world, but then Sunday, when we really didn't need to get up for anything specific, she wakes at the crack of dawn.

I remember the days when I could sleep in, and not affect anyone. Not that I was a terribly late sleeper, but ... I wish I had that option these days.

What's going to happen if and when Baby #2 makes his or her appearance. I don't think I'll sleep at all!

Another beautiful day

So, Friday I went out with some great girls. Its such a treat to go out without being on Mommy-Duty. It doesn't happen often. Even our wedding anniversary dinner was spent figuring out what Amelia should eat, and how to keep her entertained. I just wanted a nice quiet dinner, but Rob wanted to share it with her. How could I say no?

We had a nice time, and she was good, as always. We had a nice dinner and our waiter ended up bringing us a little cake to celebrate with. Then when he found out that Saturday was going to be Amelia's birthday, he brought us a 2nd cake. He was too kind. (Of course the cake wasn't WW friendly, but what the heck, it was a celebration).

This weekend was a little quieter. I went to the Chester Craft Fair with my mom and Amelia. It was okay, but where could I go with all the beautiful stuff that was being sold. So I didn't buy anything. We spent the rest of the morning walking the streets of Chester. If you've never done it, I recommend it. Its such a quaint little town. We had lunch at a little pizzaria, and Amelia was able to get out of the stroller and run around. She loved it, almost as much as the pizza.

Today, we went out for breakfast at an old favorite of ours, Jackson Hole (in Englewood). Then we went to see Ga-Ga. (that's Rob's mom). Amelia was getting a little upset/nervous because I think she thought we were going to leave her. The last time she was there, was when we dropped her off for Ga-Ga to babysit while we went for massages. (that was our Christmas present). I was in heaven, Rob --- not so much. Perhaps, next time he should get a regular massage instead of the deep tissue massage. Oh well, live and learn.

Now that the weather is getting nice, Amelia loves to be outside. The only downside, is that we live in Bug-Central. Friday, I was outside for 45 seconds before getting my first mosquito bite. After two more, I said we need to go inside. Is it me, that the bugs love? Perhas its my award-winning personality. (I don't think so either). Someone once said that if you eat a lot of bananas, that attracts the bugs. I don't know. All I know is, I HATE bugs. I bought a citranella candle once, and all it did was tell the bugs that I was there.

Well, I hope you are enjoying this beautiful weather, I think I'm going to head outside.

I made GOAL

I went to my WW weigh-in. I am down 55.2. I've made goal. My goal was 141 and I'm at 139.8. I can't believe it. There were so many times that I didn't think I would make it, but I did!!! Can you believe it????? I can't. Now comes the hard part, maintaining. Hopefully I can keep this up.

Today we're celebrating Amelia's birthday. She's two years old. I can't beleive that its been two years that she's been in our lives. It has made our lives so much richer. I can't wait to start trying for number 2. It will make it even better. :-)